Today has been a pretty good day for me considering I have been crying for sometime now. I'm so heartbroken everything is so fresh and I'm not sure what is wrong or right.
My mind tells me to let him go because I don't deserve this but my heart tells me not to give up. I don't think it's up to me at this point since I'm not sure how much into men he really is and he's not discussing it with me. You would think he owes me at least that much for the sake of my sanity! I understand well I'm trying to understand this one day at a time. What should I do is a question that I beat myself up with all day! Do I move on and live my life with our kids and show him that it doesn't bother me as much or do I show him that I still love him and want to work it out? Seriously, how do you work it out with someone if you are not even sure they want to work it out or how do you work it out with someone if you are not even sure if they love you or want another man? It's so brain wrecking!
I'm living my life in a shadow of not knowing what to do plus no one to turn to in asking these questions. I'm screaming and crying inside and no one can hear me, I walk around with a smile on my face to hide my pain.
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