Still Hard

Why is it so hard letting go? My heart keeps hanging on hoping and praying that he will come back to me but my mind tells me to give it up you shouldn't put yourself through this knowing what you know. Why do you want to be married to a man that is attractive to another man. It's so hard, I cry every night when I go to bed so that my kids don't hear me. I feel so alone. I just miss him. I wonder if he thinks of me. I wonder if he wants to come back to me. I wonder if he loves me. Do you think if we love each other we can get past this? I think so! I'm not sure though.

Please give me your input on this, I would like to know from other wives.